I feel a strong need to cultivate that uncanny ability to experience beforehand what my readers will experience when they check out what I’ve written.
This doesn’t mean I’m giving away my integrity. On the contrary, I’m aware that my readers are very much an integral part of my writing. ‘Cause, it is for them that I write.
But, honestly, experiencing what they will experience is quite a scary experience for me – much scarier than I imagined. How can I ever divine their state of mind when they would start reading my story? Mind you, the word ‘they’ is multifarious, to put it extremely mildly. Not everyone is like another. Obviously.
Yet, that’s where the challenge lies, I realize… in getting that delicately balanced feel of mass psychology that is universal to the target audience in general.
Now comes the next adrenaline phase.
Having wholeheartedly accepted this tenet, I put in my sincere efforts but by the very fact that I’ve accepted this tenet, I find I’m crashing into nerve-wracking moments quite often. I find that a good chunk of what I’ve written looks crappy. I break into cold sweat many a time.
But, I also know that this is a sign that signals I’m on the right track.
What if, on the other hand, whatever I write looks rosy and beautiful? That, to me, is almost suicidal. It indicates that something is dangerously wrong with the way I approach my writing. It indicates that I’m feeling doped by an addictive narcissistic pleasure that shoots out of every word I put in there.
So, I tell myself that learning to enjoy the nerve-wracking experience of writing is anytime better. And, it’s totally worth the trouble.
READER REVIEW: THE ASTRAL SURGE